Dear 2021 Me,
I hope when you come back to re-read this throughout 2021, you’re in a good place (or at least a better place than where I am as I’m writing this). I hope you’ve been able to trust God and walk in victory this whole time, but if not, know that it’s going to be okay. God promised you He would never leave you nor forsake you, and we can still be confident that He who began a good work in you will complete it.
With that said, there are a few things I want you to keep in mind as you continue moving forward with life:
Your Guiding Word
2021 me, your guiding word and principle is dedication. When you were a baby, you were dedicated to the Lord. Then you grew up in His presence, you were filled with Holy Ghost, and God has invested more in you than anyone can measure.
He’s dedicated everything to you, so now it’s on you to keep dedicating yourself to Him daily. That’s your reasonable service.
Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the Lord keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.Psalm 127:1 (KJV)
If you can’t dedicate it to God, it shouldn’t be in your life. If God’s not getting glory through it, it’s not worth whatever price you’re paying. If God’s not in it, it’s not going to work.
I know there are things you want and things you’re trying to pursue, but remember that you dedicated yourself to God, and you told Him that you wanted to do better.
All the ways of a man are clean in his own eyes; but the Lord weigheth the spirits. Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.Proverbs 16:2-3 (KJV)
Commit your works to the Lord no matter what. It doesn’t matter how you feel. Just do it.
2021 me, everything you put your hand to, do it as if it was your divine calling straight from God. That’s what God wants you to do, after all:
And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men; knowing that of the Lord ye shall receive the reward of the inheritance: for ye serve the Lord Christ.Colossians 3:23-24 (KJV)
However, don’t do what you’ve always done. This isn’t about emotion, obligation, or perfection. Don’t let your need to give God your absolute best drive you to ruin again. Burnout wasn’t worth it before, and it’s not worth it now.
God has a mission for you, and the only way you’re going to be effective and accomplish it is by keeping Him first, even above your desperate need to feel you’ve done an adequate enough job.
Your View of Yourself
2021 me, I know how your mind works, and the most likely reason you’re here re-reading this is because you screwed up and are trying to realign yourself. If that’s true, stop beating yourself up and just cry out to Jesus. You know He’ll hear you and will never turn away a contrite heart. You know He’s not done with you yet, because He is not a man that He should lie, neither the son of man, that He should repent.
All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.John 6:37 (KJV)
You are not a failure, and you are not worthless. You are not irredeemable, and your life was worth enough for Jesus to go to Calvary. Go ahead and feel your feelings, but stop sulking and throw it all down on the altar. Learn what God wants to teach you through it, press on, and leave it behind on the altar for God to deal with.
And when you feel empty and hopeless, remember the prayers you prayed for that person you saw yourself in at the end of 2020, and then pray them over yourself this time.
2021 me, don’t let your heart become more jaded than it already is. Remember the nights of intercession, remember the joy of giving (before it has the chance to become a noose of obligation and guilt again), and remember to guard your heart from the lies of the enemy.
You get wounded so easily, but you refuse to let anyone ever see it. Don’t let it fester this time. Please, for your own sake, stop bottling it up inside. If you don’t, you’ll have another blowout and do things you can’t undo. And this time you might hurt someone else.
Don’t trust your heart: it’s deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked (Jeremiah 17:9). Trust God’s word instead; every promise is true.
2021 me, never forget that much is required of you because much was given. You were forgiven of much, and when the Blood is applied, you have a clean slate.
Never forget that were called to this, and your God is faithful to do everything He said to you.
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.Hebrews 10:23 (NKJV)
And, finally, 2021 me, never forget that it’s not over until God says it’s over.